Life is funny. So many things to distract you, or to consume your time with. It's a lot like being lulled into a deep state of slumber. Sometimes, it can last for what seems forever.

Then, the dragon awakens!

It stirs. Barely an eyelid raised, at first, the blood surges as the adrenaline rushes to become fire. The nostrils flare! The flames roar, once more!

From deep within the Abyss of Failure, the dragon rises, to fly once more. Battered. Beaten. Defeated!

Yet, unbowed and unrepentant, as defiant as ever. Behold, the dragon cometh!

As in the days of olde. . .

Suspense & Decision magazine - A new issue coming to a website near you, soon!

So, climb aboard. Or get left behind.

Forward, ever forward!

Anyone here well-versed in Scribus?

I am attempting to teach it to myself, tonight. I've figured a few things out.

Hi Grim, and everyone else!  Miss me?

I am happy to see Charles back in his editorial chair.  I would like to do whatever I can to help with S&D.  Charles, give me some tasks.  Write articles?  Do a second installment of my weird comic strip?  Build a back-catalog of art assets?  Seek ads from industry bigwigs?  Make some coffee?  I'll do it.

I have been absent from traditional PBM for these intervening years (has it been years?)  Life got complicated, time got short, and I scratched my PBM itch in various other ways.  More on that in some forthcoming articles.

I still want to write a PBM game (Event Horizon: Red is still the working title.)  I still want to craft a new 'zine with a somewhat wider scope -- covering all deep/complex/highly-absorbing gamery.  And Davin, I still want to play through a full game of Galac-tac.

Time to put aside my other distractions and get back to what's important.  What is dead may never die!!!

On more than one PBM-related website, I seem to have forgotten my passwords.

Always something. The password recovery mechanisms don't seem to work, either.

I forgot that I had signed up for a game of Galac-Tac a while back. I am in the turn order program, now. And it seems that every ship design that I come up with yields a message of: A design of this size may not have any star drives

Can someone toss some insight my way?

From Rick McDowell over in the Alamaze community of gamers!

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Every attempt to do "something" with the whole play by mail ball of wax is, in effect, tantamount to starting over. So, in a way, it is deja vu and Groundhog Day all over again.

But, I figure that no matter how many attempts are made, and no matter how many failures transpire along the way, it is still better to start over (yet again), than to bring the effort to an end. Granted, it can get old even the first time that things go belly up or implode or just plain don't pan out, much less God only knows how many times. Yet, here we go, again!

Nonetheless, it is always interesting to listen to other people's characterization of "why" things fail. For instance, while it might strike many as counter-intuitive, maintaining a strict publication deadline has invariably proven to be more manageable to me, than publication deadlines with lots of leeway in them. Strict publication deadlines help to instill discipline into the overall process, and they help to create (and to maintain) a greater degree of urgency, than do publication deadlines that tend to give the publisher of a digital PBM magazine more breathing space.

Far more problematic and difficult than maintaining a strict publication deadline is the maintaining of energy AND focus over the long run. Life, itself, has an infinite number of distractions to throw your way, and life tends to have pretty good aim, when it is trying and conspiring to distract you.

The whole ball of wax, which includes PlayByMail.Net (the website and the forum), Suspense & Decision (the magazine) and a Facebook component (not to mention a Google+ component, for a while (Google discontinued Google+, even though it was beneficial to search engine ranks). While it is exacerbated by a lack of engaged and energetic manpower, the far bigger issue is with generating the focus and the energy and the momentum at the core of the whole play by mail enchilada.

Trying to actively engage the bulk of the known pay by mail gaming populace tends to pay small dividends, as far as converting interest form those segments of the overall PBM populace. A more casual, easy going approach that focused the bulk of its efforts on interacting with (and generating interest on the part of) the less committed (and uncommitted) bulk of potentially interested parties is, I think, likely to bear more fruit, in terms of growing the overall player base of PBM players.

Plus, too, trying to persuade the Old Guard of PBM to become primary contributors to growing awareness of the hobby tends to run smack dab into the brick walls of reality. They're either far too busy (both with their business which, in some instances, have non-PBM components that are considerably larger than their PBM interests), or they just don't have the time and energy and stamina to be at the cutting edge of the PBM energy front the way that they were several decades ago. The PBM Old Guard, whatever else might be said about them, have aged along with the rest of us, and in addition to age there are medical concerns that go along with growing older. Additionally, large investments of time, energy, or resources toward play by mail may not make good business sense for them, individually, when  weighed against competing interests and demands on their time and resources, and especially in the reality of the current PBM market, compared to what it was like back in the heyday of play by post. Times change, as do business models. Furthermore, the Old Guard of play by mail have tended to not remain stagnant in their interests, in the intervening years between the PBM scene of yesteryear and the PBM scene of today.

Generally speaking, one should strike while the iron (of interest) is hot - no matter who you are in the realm of play by mail gaming. Not everyone involved with PBM gaming at every level can all strike at the same time, for not everyone's iron (of interest) is hot, at the same time. My own level of interest in a whole variety of different things is like the ocean tides. Not every moment of every day is the equivalent of a high tide of interest.

Plus, one lesson has become crystal clear to me, in terms of things that I feel that I have learned, over the last few years, where my own efforts to reinvigorate interest in PBM gaming are concerned, and that is that what might work for me may very well not work at all, for others, and vice versa. That I might be ready at any given moment to push the whole of the play by mail gaming community forward, come Hell or high water, does not mean that everyone else is necessarily in sync with me. The fact is that it is a very complex equation, to get everything and everyone firing in unison.

Regardless, at least on my end of the PBM universe, the tide is rolling in, once more. Ahead of me (and us) now lies either success, or failure, or perhaps a little bit of both.

I would tell you all to wish me luck, but as I have articulated many times down through the years in play by mail gaming circles, luck is for the weak and unprepared.

That said, it feels good - damned good - to be back!

Happy gaming!

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Trying to access the primary e-mail account which I used to use a lot, but I have no clue what the password is, nor even how to reset it.

I wonder if, when I allowed the domain name to temporarily expire, whether it auto-nuked the e-mail account.