06-28-2016, 11:44 PM
(This post was last modified: 06-29-2016, 12:06 AM by GrimFinger.)
Death awaits us all.
The magazine has died, it seems. Even this website, itself, is permeated with the stench of death. Few are they that roam its halls, these days. Alas, alack! The mighty have fallen!
Ahem.....
In a way, strange though it may seem to those of you who may happen upon these words long after I post them, I find myself drawn even more to this website (and its magazine progeny) the more distant that others seem to become to it. Now, that doesn't fix anything, and it certainly doesn't re-gather this website's former cadre of interested parties.
Once upon a time ago, though, this website didn't exist, this forum didn't exist, the PBM Wiki didn't exist, and Suspense & Decision magazine didn't exist.
As if any of that matters now.
Like Middle-earth and Alamaze, my interest seems to run in ages or in cycles. All too often, I am distant from the very hobby that inspired all of my efforts to craft a digital legacy to play by mail gaming.
Legacy? Is that what they call this.....this whole cauldron of mess? This place has fallen into decay. It has sank into ruin. Its users have gone on to other things, to other places, to other interests.
None of which precludes me from taking up the gauntlet, once more!
Will I lose interest, again, at some point down the road? Maybe. Perhaps. Probably even probably.
But, the alternative to trying is to not try at all.
I could just give up the ghost of interest, for once and for all. I could just call it quits, and make this place come crashing down all around me. I could obliterate it to the very last shred of its meager existence.
It all boils down to choice.
And the choice is.....
Mine!
Issue # 12 of Suspense & Decision magazine has never materialized. It doesn't matter who intended what. It doesn't matter what was planned, nor what may have been hoped for. It doesn't even matter who cared and who didn't.
I have decided to re-enter the fray, once more. At worst, I will fail - again.
At best, maybe I can spark a little something in somebody else, somewhere along the way, somewhere a little father down the road.
Feel free to join me, as I set out upon the high road to PBM adventure, yet again.
Or just feel free to observe from a distance.
Or just not give a whit, at all, for any reason, great or small.
You make your decisions, and I'll make mine.
Suspense & Decision will be resurrected. I will exhume its lifeless body, myself. In all likelihood, it won't be the same as it was, before.
That may be a good thing, or it may be a bad thing, or it may well end up being a little of both.
There are some changes that I will make. You may or may not agree with them. I will do what I deem necessary to get the ball rolling, again.
Period.
It is late in the evening on June 28th, 2016, when I post this message here in this forum. That means that the month of June is almost gone. While it is just a guess on my part, I suspect that we're looking at a tentative time frame of two to three months, before the next issue of Suspense & Decision magazine published by me will materialized. I may be able to beat that estimate.
Or I may not.
Only time will bear it out, either way.
I will start anew with Issue #13. I am perfectly fine with leaving Issue #12, the issue that has never yet managed to materialize, buried in the sands of time. Bernd is still free to publish it, as was his previously stated intention, or he is free to abandon it, entirely. He is also free to just ponder its fate a bit longer, even still, entirely at his own leisure and discretion.
I will draw heavily upon my past first-hand experience with launching Suspense & Decision magazine from scratch, upon my own judgment, and upon my own gut instinct to try and succeed at getting us from the point of this forum posting to the point of Suspense & Decision magazine existing as a reality, once more.
I invite you - each and every last one of you - to join me on this journey. The unknown awaits us, one and all.
Forward, ho!
The magazine has died, it seems. Even this website, itself, is permeated with the stench of death. Few are they that roam its halls, these days. Alas, alack! The mighty have fallen!
Ahem.....
In a way, strange though it may seem to those of you who may happen upon these words long after I post them, I find myself drawn even more to this website (and its magazine progeny) the more distant that others seem to become to it. Now, that doesn't fix anything, and it certainly doesn't re-gather this website's former cadre of interested parties.
Once upon a time ago, though, this website didn't exist, this forum didn't exist, the PBM Wiki didn't exist, and Suspense & Decision magazine didn't exist.
As if any of that matters now.
Like Middle-earth and Alamaze, my interest seems to run in ages or in cycles. All too often, I am distant from the very hobby that inspired all of my efforts to craft a digital legacy to play by mail gaming.
Legacy? Is that what they call this.....this whole cauldron of mess? This place has fallen into decay. It has sank into ruin. Its users have gone on to other things, to other places, to other interests.
None of which precludes me from taking up the gauntlet, once more!
Will I lose interest, again, at some point down the road? Maybe. Perhaps. Probably even probably.
But, the alternative to trying is to not try at all.
I could just give up the ghost of interest, for once and for all. I could just call it quits, and make this place come crashing down all around me. I could obliterate it to the very last shred of its meager existence.
It all boils down to choice.
And the choice is.....
Mine!
Issue # 12 of Suspense & Decision magazine has never materialized. It doesn't matter who intended what. It doesn't matter what was planned, nor what may have been hoped for. It doesn't even matter who cared and who didn't.
I have decided to re-enter the fray, once more. At worst, I will fail - again.
At best, maybe I can spark a little something in somebody else, somewhere along the way, somewhere a little father down the road.
Feel free to join me, as I set out upon the high road to PBM adventure, yet again.
Or just feel free to observe from a distance.
Or just not give a whit, at all, for any reason, great or small.
You make your decisions, and I'll make mine.
Suspense & Decision will be resurrected. I will exhume its lifeless body, myself. In all likelihood, it won't be the same as it was, before.
That may be a good thing, or it may be a bad thing, or it may well end up being a little of both.
There are some changes that I will make. You may or may not agree with them. I will do what I deem necessary to get the ball rolling, again.
Period.
It is late in the evening on June 28th, 2016, when I post this message here in this forum. That means that the month of June is almost gone. While it is just a guess on my part, I suspect that we're looking at a tentative time frame of two to three months, before the next issue of Suspense & Decision magazine published by me will materialized. I may be able to beat that estimate.
Or I may not.
Only time will bear it out, either way.
I will start anew with Issue #13. I am perfectly fine with leaving Issue #12, the issue that has never yet managed to materialize, buried in the sands of time. Bernd is still free to publish it, as was his previously stated intention, or he is free to abandon it, entirely. He is also free to just ponder its fate a bit longer, even still, entirely at his own leisure and discretion.
I will draw heavily upon my past first-hand experience with launching Suspense & Decision magazine from scratch, upon my own judgment, and upon my own gut instinct to try and succeed at getting us from the point of this forum posting to the point of Suspense & Decision magazine existing as a reality, once more.
I invite you - each and every last one of you - to join me on this journey. The unknown awaits us, one and all.
Forward, ho!